Tuesday, October 30, 2012

today, 40


So at first I wasn't really on board to turn 40.  In fact I had been in a panic all year long about leaving my 30s behind.  But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that maybe 40 isn't so bad.

When I turned 30 life was a bit of a blur.  I had a brand new baby girl to hold and love, and I guess I was too focused on my sweet new little family to really care much that I was 30.  

The 30s were a blur - Jon was working full time and going to law school.  Precious little Henry arrived.   New jobs for Jon, two moves back and forth across the state, and we started homeschooling.

Now I feel more settled as a person, as a wife, as a mother.  I can finally attest to what women around me have expressed - getting older meant they stopped comparing themselves - they stood a little straighter and felt a little more confident in who they are.  I thought I did that in my 30s but in hindsight  I really didn't.  Especially when it comes to our children I have gotten better at trusting my instincts, and not endlessly questioning my decisions or defending my choices.  I am happy to say that I feel grown up and not like I'm pretending to be grown up, like I felt ten years ago.    

So here's to a 40 year-old me!  Bring on the extra strength eye cream! :-)

4 comments:

dawn klinge said...

There's a lot of wisdom in what you've said here. Happy Birthday Kristen! I hope that this next year is a great one for you. : )

Miller Moments said...

Love you Kristen! Hope this is a very special day for you! And remember, I'm not far behind ya! :)

Kristen said...

Thanks so much you two! {{hug}}

Anonymous said...

And may you continue to be blessed as we are to have you as a daughter in law and mother and teacher of our grandchildren!

We love you!

Ken

If you took off those shades, all could see that your beautiful eyes need no eye cream!